Wednesday, September 28, 2005

post office skaters



these little boys...excuse me....these boys were always hanging out by the post office and were the only ones I could ever seem to manage to find, the older boys were too selfconcious to ever let me take photos...well actually I knew one of the little guys from kickboxing so he knew me enough to trust me. I'd always try and take a few photos and show them...one of the reasons I like digital...they could come and see what they had done wrong and try and fix it the next time...I only wish I could have spent more time with them.


I'm all out on words
this mind drawn blank
even if I found some wall
or a canvas to paint
no graffiti of life
would spill from these hands
my beautiful, glittering, diamond sunshine
my rainbow out of reach

What am I saying?
Here's a poem from many poems-
a nice little sedimentary poem....Filtered through words
that have escaped my others.

Downtown blues
barely there
a tuned in face sweeps the crowd
laugh out loud
life a joke
yes, you've spared the time
to stare at my shoes
yet touch and go
to where?
even I don't know
my clothes made of clinging hope
in a dream only I can see
to be something only I can be
something only time can tell
so step up and step out there
and watch as the crowd goes wild

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Tracy Kim Christine the most wonderful sister I could ever hope to have

My sister on our balcony with kitcat, shes wearing a neclace I made her and you can see her beautiful toes...Just like 10 more fingers...she can play mary had a little lamb with them on her piano....

These three photos were taken in Knysna...by storms river. A place where time stands still.

she always writes her name and it sounds the same
day on day
ring on true
see though that makeup screen
she's not what she seems
oh, so much more
if you'd just ask
never mind questions
she knows what to think
when to smile
that Miss Spotted cheeks
yes, she makes me weep
her sun gold hair
always there
her bubble kiss laugh
a real rainbow maker
joy unplugged
I'll never have enough
a run around all day
always making hay
my sunshine maker you are Trace
always a shelter
always to protect
my older sister
my best friend

hands stretched out
holding on
round little fingers firmly pressed
so safe inside your love

trailing behind
a struggle to keep up
brave little legs
double time

come on wen's
your voice my life
you'll never know
just how much

double time
your struggle mine
only never just a game
you lived while I played,
played with the idea
that I could be like you!

Saturday, September 24, 2005



My skin feels all over...like a thousand butterflys...fluttering conscious feeling drifting that comes at its own accord...
Not ever overwhelming just irritatingly there. I get up and take a shower..hoping the water will contract my dilating pores to the point where I can feel like its not there again.
When will this summer storm come?
This oppressive heat always gets to me, flooding my senses till I can take no more.

The dappled light that filters though the screen -shadows crossing my fingers as they play with the light. The book I'm reading tells of another world. Its never the same once you've been there- the magic just becomes more real. I love fantasy not knowing more...Mind pictures alluring calling me to daydreams. Can there be anything better?

I turn over as I have pins and needles in my left foot where its been stationary for a while. I can never be as comfortable as that moment of time when I have to open my eyes to a new morning. Then the covers seem to cling to me like a cocoon shield from life...Almost as if my body possessed by some wisdom in the unconscious realm knows better. That the sleep world would keep me safer.

I turn over the page and read past my minds games. The room turns dark, the play of light subtle now, shadows creeping in. Sweat drips down my neck into the words.
I turn the page and the rain comes hard against the corrugated roof in a hypnotic beautiful rhythm of nature that gives me relief, my mind filled with the sound.
Loud tormented drops of water crashing to the ground, moon smooth raindrops crashed apart. I always remember the rain when its gone.

I turn the page...

Friday, September 23, 2005

A river clean and simple-a winding path, drawn down to an end.
A tree tall and covered-stretching the sky-further than birds can fly-my thoughts drift high.
Beamed down rays in their hundreds and thousands light my day
as I sit wasting a day-bathed in sunlight telling these tall tales.The river widens round a bend- a sand bank to fill with tide...Meander past tree and sky on, on too far.

So grow with me-and we will be travellers to a place I call my own.

Thursday, September 22, 2005


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Wednesday, September 21, 2005







There once was a boy
who could'nt say cant
who breathed the finest dreams
whos love unseen
was more than he could keep
who's life built on rock
stood strong on what he believed
who dreamed his future alive

I once met a man
but by chance
he bumped into me
or so I thought
a beautiful mind
a well kept garden
with dreams to out number the stars

Monday, September 19, 2005





Dark clouds circled menacingly about her, lashing her face with streaks of lightning.....her face set like the cliff of rock on which she stood...searching for urgently needed peace, she saw a storm tormented sea all around her from that lonely lighthouse. But it was nothing compared to what she felt inside-her very soul fighting for it's redemption.
She saw her future lonely too, but for the hope that she always clung to....Only it was never so stormy that she knew, the clouds had never looked at her with such distain before.

Rational thinking was beyond her now, like a dream of yesterday-her blue sky life with no cares stripped bare to the bone as the storm raged its path straight at her....
Drowning her with every drop of rain.
Why, why did I have to go and give my heart? I feel it beating--but its not mine any more....I feel it beating for you.

Where you are my love, I feel you there, come to me, come to me now. I wait for you, on this rock as I have too often....but where you are, I know you.

And so she sat there all night as strong as the storm, her blue form and her arms bare.
The wind tugging at the corners of the soaked flimsy dress as it clung, adamantly holding to the little she was...She knew the storm would go but what was on her mind was what would go with it....her emotion drowned in its depth left no tears to cry....She had run dry with the storm.

A night lighthouse
beamed its rays
a glitter of hope
on lost sails
tempted waves
lashed the sides
lapping up her wounded pride
she fought both valleys
deep and dark
so too high crests
and their hope
tumble down
like a rag doll
did you think
you could hold?


The waves held the highground all around them, the boat fill to the brim with three men, a catch of fish, and determination. They would make it through! This had been their lot before, and they had lived to see the blue sky again. The sea gave as much as it expected in return-the occasional storm was a small price to pay for a living eked out.
It paid for the right to dream of a life with a family of his own, with a little wife to come home to on a hill overlooking ocean as far as the eye could see. He knew he could not disappoint his bride to be-with her swollen stomach that took his dreams and made them real-he could taste his future and it looked so real.

Another wave took them on-who would win the war of the sea and sky? They knew with every roar and soaking that they were impostors, that they were completely at the mercy of the sea- it in return just humouring them for as long as it so desired...
Every wave mocked them,relentless and suborn.
He turned his gaze once again to the sky that looked just like a mirror of the sea. Wild, angry and swollen.
He was torn with this feeling that their luck would soon run out.
His mouth went dry at the thought and his mind turned to the lonely figure high above them-a guardian of the light who would be there to welcome them home....Come to me she said-come to be safe, you are welcome in my arms, I wait for you, you are my life-that part of me I will always need to complete myself.

Her kiss a tale of life warm on his lips, a tale come to a end, his life a balance of itself never any closer or further from the truth, just that feeling of hope-his hope for life now come to die.
He fought the water world for the right to breathe, for the right to live. But his time had come, his time to go....The sea had claimed its own.

Saturday, September 17, 2005



Friday, September 16, 2005






Trees grow free
wild about breathing
stretching up
reaching high
they touch the sky
with fingers of branch outstretched

Shade grows wide
beneath her leaves
summers day
cool sweet breeze
wind to play her branches
winter snow
drawn out and low
her branches weight to bear

trees let go
as their branches dance
to the tune of the wind
the echo of a thousand leaves

Leaves twirl free
as they touch the sky
carried over fields and higher
they circle careless
they circle wide
they take too
tomorrows heir

Seeds touch down
to begin again
the circle of life



The daily train
comes again
I get on
I come and go
daily train
when it rains
gets me there
but to where?
missed times
always again
round and round
back and forth
on and off
today, tomorrow
and over again
fields of grass and houses passed
the rock and sway
make my day
sunlight filters
dappled trees
summers, winters
always fees

My doodled thoughts
catch the page
with sunshine beams on my face
I wait
I sigh and smile
the day grows wild
with warmth and me
no cares
Where will I go
on parallel tracks
the one thing I know is
to dream

To dream is to live life free
place to place
it's plain to see
face to face
they're all the same
being one in the game
only hope stays my journey




Marked down sale
in a corner shop
no guarantees
at this second hand store
a place I go often
and look for bargains
but never find you

sifting through piles of potential
never anything real
love to leave
but always back for more

sell by dates
I'm often too late
yesterday's special
could it be you...

shop till I drop these down town blues
till you find me in any other colour

Thursday, September 15, 2005





This is just a random collection of thoughts-bit of what goes on in this head of mine, not my experiences mind, as I love listening to life through other people-I write things down in a little purple book and scribble whenever I can eg. On trains, buses, the wonderful underground that is soooo good for the skin!

Here are a few thoughts that happen to rhyme!

Beautiful you caught my eye
like a dream
a sun filled sky
heaven for sale in your smile
but go on by
I wouldn't want to break your stride
you have more important things on your mind

In your eyes I see a dream
de ja vou
but I haven't a clue where I'm at
I try and speak
but there's no sound
my knees go weak and your to blame
I wish I knew this is a game
and that it all ends the same

Sweep past me this busy street
I'll have you know it could have been empty





Love and Peace Street.



And that was the beginning she said as she softly stroked her groggy child’s resting head. The little figure across her lap satisfied to be near her warmth and to hear her voice fought a yawn trying to delay the inevitable end of the story with sleep.
The day was over, the night just begun as the last fall of light outlined her bent head intent on the story that she was too familiar with, seeped in tradition and very old for she could remember her grandmother repeating the same words to her as she sailed to the dream world all those seasons ago.

Her nostalgia was disrupted by the loud silence and the odd croak and chirp of frogs and crickets, she looked down on the face of her daughter and had never known a love like this, so strong that she would stop at nothing , no one would ever take this child away. Her place in her mothers heart secure .
The child stirred her deep breathing never faltering as she searched for what she took for granted.

Patience turned away as she had much to do before tomorrow like every day a hard unthankful day. Taking the water buckets she went of to fill them from the communal tap on the edge of the little circle of shacks.
As she walked the chickens made a loud noise as they signaled her presence but she was immune to their ignorant ranting. She passed them and turned the tap on top of the long flimsy pipe that was the little group of huts only source of water.
The slow trickle of water made a splashing sound as it swirled round the bottom of the first bucket. Sitting patiently, careful to watch the level of water and twisting the tap handle to stop the flow of water in between the buckets being filled.
When both of her buckets were three quarters full-she did not fill them all the way as not to spill and waste water on her track back to her home.
As she braced herself for the load of the water across her shoulders she sang softly to herself all the way back.
Unloading her heavy familiar burden she arched her back then busied herself with the last of her work.

The sound of one small but trying to be invisible crept up on her,’ Hope?’ She put down her pots and straightened her back. Looking up the child was framed by the door bringing in more light than she shadowed.
My sweet dream child from the stars you have been carried to me on the back of my desire. She thought of the times when Hope was just a thought that she had willed into existence. A imagined joy, too good to be true she was when the stars finally brought her.A beautiful wet bundle more precious for the pain. That was two years ago. But Hope had lived in her heart many more years than that.
A little hand felt for hers and immediately clung for all its warmth. Toola ,toola my child ,the dark is just a blanket that God throws over the sky to help us sleep.And the stars? Asked Hope looking up at her with wide endless eyes filled with wonder.
They are the holes that have not been mended and the light shows through.
The soft light of her words wrapped in myth, legend of her fathers tribe passed down to her child.
Looking down she searched that face, that beautiful moon reflected oval of her daughters.
Her eyes perfect as the moon showed so to the ears, mouth and nose.
Her heart felt burst in pride, millions of feelings swept her like a tide. Guided by moon light she placed Lucky softly on her bed. She bent and kissed the head.You, my star were worth the wait.
For now Hopes fear of the dark would be appeased by the comfort of her arms. Patience sighed as she thought of how her mother had soothed her own fears in a similar way.
The night closed in on itself and gave way to dawn.

The clean morning sang a new day to birds gone wild in praise. They sang their heart song to the beat of Africa.The mountains blue in height and framed the hills that were their neighbors as deep valleys took cover ,willing their water cool and pure. The velt wild and free breathing the wind alive again. Swirling grassland playing the air with fingers of stem. Springbok jumped for show to a kingdom of timeless circle.

Patience emerged from her dream to her reality. Gathering up her blanket she wrapped it around her body tucking it into its self just above her breast.
The fire needed more wood.
She went to the pile that she had gathered yesterday after work on her way up the mountain home. It lay neatly beside her home and still had the shape of when she had carried it on her head. Wood was becoming more and more hard to come by and she, like others was being forced to go deeper and deeper into the reserve to find the right type to fuel her fire. It was harsh life but that she didnt know it was, familiarity ingrained a sense of identity that would be hard pressed to move.
There was a better life for Hope though, always a better life. She would have an education and a future, not just an existence.
There was only the tap that showed progress even that they where lucky to have.
Life stirred in Love and Peace street high up in the hills of a newly created game farm complete with electric fences and barbed wire.- The Bas didn't want elephants and lions escaping. Unsaid was that the current kept anything else unwanted out as well.